Feeling alone

There are people around and you feel alone, but when they are gone, you miss them, you feel worse and you want to cry. There is something inside you that says being alone is what you need, but the thing is you are never alone. You are always with yourself. You are trying to get away from yourself but this is impossible.

What is "yourself"? Your thoughts, your emotions, your ideas. You don' t feel good about these. It is like it's you and the person you dislike inside you. So, you feel alone, because this person inside you has wishes that are unfullfiled and fears that are not faced. You, on the other hand, just want to feel free in your heart and have good thoughts.

When you disagree with this person inside you, then you feel alone. Sometimes, you meet a friend and this friend makes you feel good about yourself. It is because this friend takes the place of this person inside you that you disagree with. For a while, everything is fine and you feel someone is supporting you. If you don't convince your negative friend inside you that where you are and what you feel is great, you will feel alone again. 

We cannot be attached to other people to forget our loneliness, but face our loneliness in our heart. Loving this person inside you and stop arguing with it, might do some difference. So, love "yourself" and you will stop feeling lonely.